i will clarify and say that i haven't been very sad or consistently 'funky,' but in a weird state of 'what the hell do i do now?' today? tomorrow? i described it to a friend the other day like this...
i feel like i am standing in the middle of a gigantic white box. i can see all four corners and four different doors, yet i can not bring myself to enter any of the four doors. i can't choose which way to go, which means i have been standing in the middle of a white box and pondering what to do for a week.
feeling unmotivated and completing tasks just to get them done without much enjoyment while doing it. it's not like me.
we all do this from time to time as the mundane is not always fun. obviously.
i'm not sure where this funk came from, but realizing that i needed to do something to center myself, i started thinking that i needed to change things up a bit. do something different. take the road less traveled. call an old friend. take a day jaunt to somewhere i have never been. take my girl some where and do something that makes us laugh till it hurts. start a yoga class or start running again. make some new recipes.
in the midst of my 'growth spurt' i thought that maybe i should rid the house of the television for thirty days or change the drapes, paint the walls, go vegan temporarily, buy new lipstick, go to church,...
so, now that i have taken a week to unearth the fact that i am in a huge transition stage of heidi-mommy of young babies to, heidi- mommy of two school age children and that that simple reality is causing some major premature empty nest syndrome symptoms.
so, for the next couple of weeks i'm going to do a few things that i have never done before and here they are...
1. after dropping peyton off at school, beckham and i are going to go running on the beach. i have NEVER done that and it's rediculous. it's so flippin' beautiful on the beach and we only live 15 minutes away. why the hell not?
2. i am going to make healthier strawberry jam. i've been saying it for a while now and i will find a way!
3. BE uber present for my kids and try to say yes more and less maybe later.
and 4. finally, challenge myself creatively AND physically.
i know i am airing my dirty laundry on my little ole blog here, but shamefully/maybe not, i think i will find myself more accountable this way and besides, i can be a tad to honest here, but it's already made me feel lighter!
i'll keep ya posted!
okay, my camera has been in the camera spa (aka it was broken and sent off to be loved on) so i have been without my third baby. bad news...i've missed it terribly. good news...i got it back yesterday just in time for a photo shoot tonight! it felt so good to be back to work/fun with a beautiful and pregnant family. sneak peeks will be up in a few days!
so...i had my new iphone camera and the perfect time to play with it a bit. i downloaded a couple of camera apps...
this one and
i didn't actually learn all the features or the best way to use them all, but i had fun pushing buttons and snapping away. i am sure there are some AMAZING iphone photogs out there, but this is what i captured with the only camera i had this last week...
trying to play outside of my box, i golfed for the first time in about 12 years. i despise golf. i don't see the point in getting a small ball in a small hole from very far away. i. don't. get. it. but my hubby has a deep passion and skill for the game, so entered a tournament with some friends of ours and...it was a blast.
things i loved about it:
1. i got to wear my mother-in-laws retro golf shoes. they were dusty but redeemed themselves by having tassels!
2. we hung with cool people. one of which claimed to suck at golf as much as me but delightfully we found out...she's a liar! she rocked it out and i loved watching her kill the ball!
3. it rained on us. hard. i loved it!
4. jeff loved that we were golfing together.
5. it was so peaceful on the course. beautifully green and i heard the birds singing longer and louder than in cinderella.
6. my ball went into the water three times and each time i couldn't stop laughing. even funnier, jeff asked me to fish my balls out of the water myself. (still laughing at that one) he decided the only way to get his balls back was to do it himself cause i was not risking life or limb in case an alligator lived nearby!
had a 'ball' on the course, but the main events were the rain and the super spicy bloody mary on the back nine.
bottom line: i suck at it & i still hate golf!
we visited the diversity fair in naples this weeked:
it was hot but a lot of fun! the kids and jeff climbed a huge rock and peyton made it to the top and even rang the bell. so proud of that little one.
we made crafts, ate really good pulled pork sandwiches, and danced! it was an awesome way to spend saturday together as a family!
cotton candy maker gave us the honor of giving us thee biggest one he's ever made. my kids thanked him and ran before i could ration it out.
and some pictures i never posted from our trip to michigan in the fall...
the anatomy of family picture. my mom has the camera she doesn't know how to use meaning she doesn't know where the shutter button is or if it actually took the picture and we have two kids and two parents and only about ten frames were taken. obviously not enough to get the job done, but these made me laugh anyway.
daddy's looking good, but the rest of don't seem to care that the camera is on us!
yay, mommy finally looks up, but peyton looks confused and daddy and becks are having a convo on the side, probably about basketball!
daddy and baby brother...great job. mommy got tired and thought now would be a great time to take a little snooze. peyton is not interested in anything having to do with taking a photo!
almost there, but beckham wants a tractor ride.okay. maybe next time!
i love these people so much!
taking a family picture can be near impossible. my suggestion...
bribery! there is a one in five chance it will work!
we did get these beauties though...
my lovely mom.
few tried and true recipes:
this is what i call chicken caponata which isn't really a caponata at all. caponata is defined as an appetizer of eggplant, olives, and herbs. however, this is what my mom calls it and has called it this since i was just a wee lad, so this is my version of
pound of chicken breast cutlets
one red and yellow pepper, sliced into thin strips
one large sweet onion
one tablespoon fresh rosemary or sage
(i used rosemary because i had it on hand)
6 slices of prosciutto
4 tablespoons olive oil
one large can of whole plum tomatoes (do not drain)
1/4 cup chicken broth
salt and pepper
heat two tablespoons oil in pan. soften sliced peppers and onions over low-med heat, about 5 minutes. remove from pan.
season cutlets with pepper and little salt (prosciutto is salty on it's own, so be careful). over medium-high heat, heat remaining olive oil and place breasts in pan. place slices of prosciutto over each pc of chicken. sprinkle with herbs. cook each side for a couple of minutes. remove from pan.
add broth to same pan you browned the chicken in. scrape bits off of bottom. add tomatoes (break the toms up with hands), chicken, peppers, onions, half teaspoon salt, half teaspoon pepper. cover and let simmer about 20 minutes.
depending on the thickness of your chicken...you don't rubbery chicken, so if you're not sure. check often.
add some finely chopped rosemary at the end.
serve with pasta or mashed pots.
enjoy. this dish reminds me of home. it's easy and delicious.
not long ago, i had girlfriends over for noshes and a movie. the most fun is planning the food. i promised the menu and recipes so here they are!
the menu included new recipes from ina garten:
a green salad with my lemony-garlic dressing
to make dressing: in a bowl whisk together 1/2 cup olive oil, two teaspoons freshly crushed garlic, 4 tablespoons red wine vinegar, and juice from half a lemon (or more to taste), kosher salt, pepper. whisk like a crazy person and put in a pretty jar. serve with arugula and mixed green salad.
heidi's sunset ritas:
a pitcher of ruby red grapefruit juice, two cups freshly squeezed orange juice, juice from 3 limes, one and a half cups your fave tequila,ice, sugar and not salt rimmed rita glasses.
combine all ingredients in a pitcher, rub each rita glass with a lime and dip the rim of glass in sugar. fill glass, enjoy! refreshing, refreshing, refreshing. perfect for summer!
browned butter brownies
adapted from bon appetit
sometimes we are so happy where we are, that we forget to appreciate change and see the beauty in that. i'm kicking this funk to the curb making me some strawberry jam and then i'm gonna shake my a-- on the beach.
here's to your jam making-booty shaking endeavors!
what do you do/want to do to change things up a bit?