stolen heart and botox.

busy, busy as a bee. oh, i am so tired, but happier to be sitting here...finally, on my blog. i can't believe how comforting it was to push the 'new post' button and see the empty space to be filled.

"your best teacher is your last mistake." -ralph nader

ralph. i bet he was a wise man, because truer words have not been spoken!

(well, this week anyway)

friends...can i just say that i MUST be one damn good teacher 'cause i am learning, learning, learning that #1. technology is not my strong suit, and

#2. technology rocks & i still suck at it. ha!

i won't bore you with the details, but photography and color space issues have taken over my life the last few weeks. many tests, tears, and prayers later...i'm on my way to getting it fixed. wish me luck 'cause mama needs some sleep but feeling genuinely grateful for my many mistakes/forced learning experiences.

beach time at sunset for some quiet time and a glass of wine -okay, no wine but it's a great idea for next time!

i settled for soft, cool sand under my toes

in the most beautiful golden light i have ever seen at a naples sunset

shared with friends who are my family and a hundred other strangers that stared out into the gulf and let the day melt around them. i could feel the exhaustion flutter away and in those moments i felt like that golden light was there just for me and my loved ones to enjoy. it was...heavenly. really, it was.

i think it had something to do with the fact that i was with some of my favorite girls...

kelle, her babies, and her nieces. they are amazing young girls and loving on them when they are here is a treat.

my own babies wanted to go for pizza with daddy, but nella kept me company.

my little guy.

...i love you, yes it's true

you stole my heart...

it's not his lashes, that could also double as the world's most beautiful spider, that make me love him so much. his sweet little heart, his caring nature, and the way he loves his mama...

it is the most amazing love. the unconditional kind. the vulnerable kind. the i-can't-get-enough-of-this- exquisite creature-kind.

it goes on and i know that every mama feels the same way about her baby, but he must be special, right?! ha. well, he is to me and i wish you could what i see when i look at his face these days.

i see my baby transforming into this little guy. one who LOVES sports (just like his daddy), one who wants to cook me eggs...everyday. he is independent and loving. he adores the women is his life by planting big kisses on our faces when we're not looking.

i wonder how i will ever live without the many random, 'mama, i love you!' throughout the day.

i'm not sure how mothers before me have done it, but they do and they live through it and they are still happy.

besides, beckham and peyton are in agreement...

"we are living with you forever mommy!'

i just respond with the very normal, "of course you are honey!" at which point i bind them by conversational contract by taking video of those statements (that will be played at the slideshow at their weddings, of course).

i'm rambling on and on but i'm about done.

i did it. botox baby!

i'm actually not into this next photo and i was about to erase it because for some reason, i wore a pajama top in the woods...i posed...like a big dork---okay, my friend was taking shots with my camera to try it out.

i stumbled across this beauty earlier in the week, and my first thought was... i really should be pickier about what i let people take a picture of with my camera, and the next thing i thought...

thank goodness i bought that new firming cream. ha.

so kidding. generally, i don't stress about fine lines and such, and is it weird to say that i kinda like them a teeny bit?

it's life lived. it's great and it shows through. it's not all that bad, yet.

before botox

and after...

ha. i meant digital botox people!!! i'm pretty sure my sister was sitting at work reading this and about choked on that scone she's munching on, ;)

this was my april fool's post that never happened ! no botox. i'm less afraid of my wrinkles than i am of the needle i heard they use for botox.

okay, next post

recipe for jeff's goulet'

it's yummy and healthy and so super easy and inexpensive!

not going to check this for spelling. g'night!

xoxoxo