Wednesday, January 19, 2011

little. big. life.

most days, it seems that i am dabbing on one minute of makeup and shuffling my little ones out the door while locking my mouth together to hold in the apple i just shoved inside of it. i urge, i clap, i repeat directions like a poorly-trained drill sargeant.

i check again for backpacks and lunch boxes and i kiss each one as i click the car and booster seats. i realize that after we have taken our time 'waking up/cuddling' for an hour, we are always rushin' it the last few minutes causing us to make it to school right before the bell rings.

yes, i am that mom.

i'm lynette from desperate housewives. i wouldn't mind saying i could rock out a sweatsuit while exercising in full hair in makeup, but that is the opposite of me. if i make it out to exercise, you can bet your last buck that i will look like the picked over remains of last night's thai take-out.

i guess what i am trying to say in a backward way is, i never fail to feel like i am part of an unspoken club. a club made up of strong and passionate women. the club where all mommies herd their young out the door, where pop-tarts are considered a good option for breakfast, where whipped cream is desperately unleashed into a cup-of-wake-me-up-NOW-cup-of-joe because i forgot to buy cream...or another gallon of oj that the kids just have to have on the only morning that i don't have any.

fleeting thoughts of guilt try to float in...i should have gone shopping last night. i should have packed a healthier lunch. i shoulda...woulda...coulda...
i push these thoughts out. it's a skill that i have been working on and i highly recommend it to everyone.

i'm not a 'club' girl. whatever that means. but as i heat the car to warm my little ones; sing them happy and upbeat songs that my tired brain will conjure up (without a side of eye-rolling from one little miss peyton mae, please);
and encourage good behavior while teaching them last minute life-lesson playground scenarios (be kind, independent, and a role-model even if little sara said you shouldn't play with any other little girls because they all smell like rotten milk)...i gotta say...i know i am one of thousands loving, instilling, and praying for a productive and happy day for their little pint-sized scholars.

for our 7 minute car ride to kindergarten, we get a lot of stuff in and it all comes down to one thing. one goal. one belief. to send my kids to school feeling loved, warm, and fed ...with an extra helping of encouragement or hand holding if needed.

it seems she needs me less these days. that sucks, but it's good too. so, with all of the other moms, young and old...i stand along beside you as you fill mini-vans and bleacher seats. i think about this being our time. the best time in our lives is right now and it's worthy of note!

end of ramble.

we went home to michigan for a few days last week! to the snow...
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i didn't have cool snow clothes...it kind of made it more fun to look to not put together! it was funny!

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we landed in detroit and exactly two hours later we were on a snow covered hill lovin life!


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our little snow bunnies had an amazing time and we were so proud of how brave they were.
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michigan can be so beautiful. it was...crisp, good, and picturesque.

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we went fast, caught snow flakes with our tongues, and made a few angels in the snow!

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our budding snow queen.

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the next day we went to my families annual family party! a bunch of us crazy sisters and loud italian dad get together to eat, laugh, and passionately defend our opinions while my mom hands us things to cook under strict supervision! we look forward to the family time together and it's always filling and fun and a sure way to gain 5 pounds in one night!

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my sweet grandma, peyton's namesake. i relish every minute spent with her. she always smells of lilacs and revlon lipstick...and maybe pond's cold cream. i held her hand for a long while feeling her thin, soft familiar fingers. she looks a little different this time. better, maybe. older, for sure. it's hard to see someone you love so much changing before your eyes.

it's like a door into one's future, but more than that, it reminds you of how precious time is. i love that woman so much. she is my angel.

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my mom, finally relaxing after a week of home cooking. love you, mom!

as three-day vacations do...it flew by and we are back home!

the promise of a new year. a better year. time for other opportunities and growth. january feels like a rebirth of the universe. i love basking on its clean canvas.

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my cranky girl. we were walking too slow, i guess.
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i played mommy to four kids!
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and i liked it. totally think i could handle a couple more!

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yes, our girl lost her top tooth. she lost it at school and proudly wore it in a plastic tooth case around her neck. i kind of dreaded this moment as her baby face is gone, but she is so happy about it that we can't help but love her new look and her new big girl status update!

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(the kids looks like they were dipped in cherry kool-aid)

beckham told peyton that he could stay up long enough to see the tooth fairy, so he slept with his big sis that night with grand promises of catching her in a net and then taking a picture. this is what we found an hour later...

my loves.

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speaking of love...
this family had me at hello!
or twins or beautiful mama...not sure.

i can't say enough about these people, now friends. they radiate happiness and their house is full of laughter and recently...the sounds of soft baby cries and new life...

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this dad and his girls never stopped laughing, joking, playing. one thing is for sure, they love to make music and they do it well!

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i can't wait to watch these little ones grow!

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another session!
i was so excited to meet this family! they were so fun to shoot and can these boys get any cuter?
melissa, thank you for taking time out and trekking across snow and sleet to get to me! your boys are adorable and...sweet as pumpkin pie!
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lots of love!

61 comments:

Anonymous said...

What a great shot that is, the baby on the piano! Such a good idea. All your photos a great. Ear to ear smile, and I especially loved the whipped cream shot story. I'm THAT mom too. Keeps things interesting though, right?

Anonymous said...

BEAUTIFUL PICTURES, MY BEAUTIFUL NEICE! I ALWAYS ENJOY LOOKING AT YOUR PAGE, IT BRIGHTENS UP A SOMTIMES VERY DREARY DAY! KEEP UP THE FANTASTIC WORK MY DEAR! LOVE THE FAM PARTY PICS, YOU CAPTURED THE REAL MOMENTS. LOVE YA AUNT KIM XXXOOO

Rhonda said...

What a perfect balance of life you have. The warmth of the hot sun on your face, and the crispness of the cool snow!!
Your babes will lead such a well balanced life, enjoying little pieces of it all!!
Your Gramma is beautiful. I miss mine everyday, she was my best friend!! I was so happy that she got to see me become a Mom and meet my son!!
Well, Heidi my friend, I think its time, I think you really do need to bring another sweet babe into this world :) It is pulling on you...DO IT!!!!
I am struggling with the same thing. Should I , or shouldn't I...maybe a cat is in order :)
If you do, I will, pinky swear :)

Rhonda
XO

Lisa Hewlett said...

Oh my goodness...that piano picture...melts my heart. And great pics of your family, you guys are so cute!

Jen Biasi said...

I love the snow covered walkway pic and the beachy walkway one. So different - both great. ALL of it's great stuff per usual, Heidster.
Love you!
xoxoxox

Rebecca said...

Wow, your morning is exactly like my morning was today. Crazy. With a capital C. Love the pics, currently we're drowning in mountains of snow and ice and I could use a couple of weeks in heat and sunshine, but for now I'll settle with my nice cup of coffee! :)

April said...

Good morning! Loved the twin photos ... just precious. I have a morning to relax and be lazy with my boys, so gotta go ... Myles is begging me to read Spiderwick :) Happy, happy day ... xoxo

Kate said...

Dear Heidi
I love when I start my day with your blog! Its a perfect marriage with my coffee!! I think any mom is a star no matter what character we are. I rotate like shoes, some weeks perfect others a bit wonky. In the end they know I love them endless, thats what counts. Beautiful images of your family and the precious families that you did photo shoots with. Love love it!! Keep us warm in our hearts girl!!!

love ya
Kate xoxo

Kris said...

I love this post, Heidi! Sounds to me like you have the perfect balance and you are doing a fantastic job!! I adored every picture here....the ones in the snow made me smile from ear to ear! And the ones of your Grandmother, along with your words, made me want to hold my Grandmothers hand and smell her smell. :) And, aww, Peyton losing her tooth. *big sigh* They are growing up too fast.
xoxo
Kris

Malu said...

Beautiful pictures, but I should say they come up as sweet words of joy, faith in living and commitment. God bless you and your lovely family!!

Amie said...

Welcome back - you were missed! Loved your photos, as usual. And I love your love for your grandma-brought a tear to my eye. AND, could your kids get ANY cuter?!

Shaams said...

I have missed your posts! Just remember that peyton does not need you less...she just needs you in a different way. The hardest years of her life are coming up and you are her role model. What an amazing role model you are! I say it often but I need my mom more than ever even though I am 28 and married!
Awesome pictures!
Have an awesome day!

Christie Clair said...

Love this post! So many fabulous photos, and a few mommy moments near and dear to my heart- lost teeth, snow trips, letting go mommy guilty and embracing mommy power (Poptarts and all!)

Smiles from CA...
Christie

P-nut said...

oh i loved what your wrote at the beginning about being part of "the club and life and herding littles out the door and the woulda, coulda shoulda..."
and it must be fun to be able to dip into snow for a few days and then return to warmth!
and i LOVE LOVE LOVE LVOE LOVE LOVE the pic of peyton and beckham sleeping together! ridicuously adorable.. and the twins with their eyes open in the white sheets.. oh my.. and on the piano! i'm all warm and fuzzy after this post! ha ha!! xoxo

Loosy said...

You have the most amazing eye. A-MAZING.

And of course I love your words too.

Leah said...

Seriously Heidi?!?! These pictures are amazing!! The ones of the twins are breathtaking... especially love the one of the baby on the piano (made my heart skip a beat) and the one of the two of them lying opposite of each other... beautiful. You are so very talented. And the ones of the boys at the end... adorable. Great job!

Rachel said...

I'm sure everyone already said the same thing, BUT, I love all those baby pictures. Great job. Very creative and well shot!!! :) Keep it up!

LCR said...
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LCR said...

Heidi,
Your writing and photos are beautiful, I always love your blogs. In fact, reading yours and Kelle's has made me want to write my own- for the sake of documentation and seeing the wonderful in the ordinary 'every day'. I would love if you checked it out sometime:) As you were my blogger inspiration!

http://lcr-outsidevoice.blogspot.com/

Unknown said...

oh i just love the piano photos!!!
and i am "that" mom as well. i think we all are in some way or another, some just won't admit it :) if you ever come to california i would love you to take photos of Bayley, i just love your style. Hope you are having a great week.
xoxo

Anna Ruth said...

I love this post. There is so much love pouring out of the pictures and your words. The pictures of the twins are just beautiful, some of your best work. Glad you had some fun in the snow!

sara said...

Now I love reading your blog even more since I've met you in person. Loved all of these photos. Also totally related to your mornings. No matter how hard I try, someone is always late. I am left driving an empty car out of the parking lot (save for the guilt that sits in the passengers seat) thinking about a permission slip I forgot to sign or a vitamin I forgot to dispense. But every day, they bouce out to carpool happy as a lark and I make a promise to myself that we will be first in drop off line the next day.
So happy to be able to stay connected to you through the blog. I'm going to try to keep mine updated this year.

iColossus / Monster said...

Eeek, how could I have missed this post?!!! Just getting to it now.

BEAUTIFUL. I love that shot of P and B sleeping....soooo precious, OMG. Seriously, can you just not stand it when your kids are being loving to each other and getting along?!! Especially when you know, ha, it might only last a few seconds?!!!

So glad to finally meet J, P, and B. Feel like I bonded with P a bit on Friday night, she's so sweet. And she always will be, trust me.

Lots of love, kisses, and hugs!!!!

xoxoxoxo

Kelly Hutcheson said...

I love that you were sledding as soon as you got off the plane! And love that picture of the 2 of them in bed together! So sweet!

And those twins? o.m.g.

Anonymous said...

this is my second time here..first time was tucked in the hurry and scurry of getting Gracee into class and preparing for a full day of appointments..so today I read it at my pace and enjoyed every moment. You nailed it, we are just one of millions of moms keeping the wheels turning in our families...and knowing how blessed we are.
I have to tell you that I think my favorite part of this post are the pictures of your family..that picture of you all in the room and your dad on the couch made me tear-up a bit..and the one of your Elizabeth Taylor look alike Mom is lovely..made me miss my loud and incredibly fabulous family. We are all getting together in March for TWO weeks in honor of my Dad's 80th birthday...we have not all been together in almost 3 years..good times are in my future!
I must ask you this...I just adore your photos and I would love to know what is your very favorite lens that you use. You know, the one you reach for that fits most occasions..thanks for a lovely read!!♥

patsy said...

oh heidi...you and i are in the same mom's club! but we love our babies to pieces and so all that other stuff really doesn't matter, right? ;) beautiful photos as always, and love all the b/w family photos. and congrats to miss peyton on the loss of her first baby tooth :)

Marian Hazel said...
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Marian Hazel said...

Hello Heidi, I'm going back through your blog, and getting to know you!

But I smiled at this sentence

and i liked it. totally think i could handle a couple more!

He, he, bet you didn't think you then you would be pregnant by the end of 2011! Love that you have captured your life so truly, what an amazing keepsake to look back on!

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